From Bobby to Brian

June 27^th, 2009

Hey,

I’m okay. Yeah last week my dad and my brothers and friends came down to visit and somehow we all ended up watching this ridiculous show. Since there’s nothing else on, I’m watching it again and it’s still stupidly funny, but just not the same without other people.

Today I didn’t really have any visitors, which can be really nice sometimes, but today the walls were definitely closing in on me. I like having my alone time, but it leads me to thinking about things that really stress me out. People are the best distraction for me in those situations.

The thing I’ve been thinking a lot about recently is forgiveness. It seems like there are a lot of people in my life right now that either need forgiveness from someone or need to forgive. It’s a heavy topic and something that may be at the core of a lot of the things we talk about. Spirituality, Death, Life, all revolve (to me) around the premise of doing good in this world and learning from your mistakes and growing spiritually. You need forgiveness to be able to move on in life, sometimes the most meaningful being the ability to forgive yourself. But anyway when I think about all the people that strive for it in my life I wonder what my capacity for forgiveness is. I feel like if you can forgive that is the best gift/thing you can do for anyone.

I’m hoping maybe early next week I can get outta here but Dr. Holsclaw plays it pretty close to the chest when it comes to a release date. I usually find out the day before. Feeling great though. Did I tell you that I’m not going to move into Devin and Ali’s? After all of this, for right now I think it’s better that I be around my family who can keep a close eye on me and feed me in a clean air-conditioned place. I’m also going to start Yoga FOR REAL and my goal is to increase my PFT’s everytime I go into the office.

Have you heard the new Grizzly Bear record? Man, I am obsessed, so good.

How are you feeling? Have things slowed down and are you able to get a little rest?

talk to you soon,

b.

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