# 34
Brian McTear to me
Feb 11, 2009
Wanna know something intersting? My mom was given a copy of Seth Speaks (the second “Seth Book”, after Seth Material, which I mentioned) when I was 4 or so. One of the things Seth talks about is that we choose our life, and then we live it. Well, my mom instantly put the book down because she interpreted that as being “Brian has CF because he CHOSE to have CF” (which basically boiled down to blaming CF on Brian), and she never read it again. There’s a Catholic connection in there somewhere, but I don’t know exactly what it is….
Without knowing, 15 years later I pick up the book and read the same thing but the message seemed so liberating. To me I felt like I was in control! I mean, I like who I am, and a great part of who I am is because I have CF! So it was a great thing to talk to my mom about. It made me feel like I was living a purposeful life.
The main thing I pulled from Seth books that really changed my life was the perception of time. I am sure many of your books are discussing it as well, ie. that time doesn’t really exist, it’s an illusion, kind of an adaptation or means for interpretation of all the experience these physical bodies come up against. In our greater existence (the part not attached to a body or bodies), we have full awareness and absolute creativity, part of which we use physical experience to slow down and disect. Time also serves to let physical beings communicate, as well. It’s a limitation device. You and I can communicate because we exist in the same time and setting, and much of that setting evens the communication playing field as well.
It’s been so long now, that I am sure I have my own explanation for everything. In other words, the books may have a different flavor 15 years later, but that’s how much they changed my life. They started whole worlds of thought, which has largely been my world since!
(Now there’s some rambling for you!)
I know you have lots to read, but here’s my favorites list anyway. They fall into 3 catagories, generally: Mysitical New-Agey stuff, Alternative Theology, Science Fiction
New Age:
Seth Material, Seth Speaks (Jane Roberts)
Cosmic Trigger, Schroedinger’s Cat Trilogy (Robert Anton Wilson)
Alt Theo:
The Origin of Satan, The Gnostic Gospels, The Gospel of Thomas (Elaine Pagels)
Science Fiction:
Childhoods End, 2001, 2010, 2061, 3001 (Arthur C. Clarke)
The Three Stigmata of Palmer Eldrich, Valis (Philip K. Dick)
Oh, I don’t know if this is any help for you with physical pain, but something I learned through yoga (have you tried yoga? It really really helps…. I am off the wagon, but…). When stretching or doing difficult poses, the one time I worked with an instructor she told me that when you feel pain, instead of recoiling or “grinning and bearing it” simply say in your mind: “That’s the feeling of my hamstring stretching” or whatever it is that is difficult. Amazingly, it puts the pain outside of yourself, almost like watching the pain on TV or something. You can still feel it, but there is some control over the effect it has on you.
Just a thought. I know there’s things that are way beyond stretching muscles with CF, but I have found it works sometimes.
We should get together some time. I’ll make sure not to give you my cudies…. We don’t have to shake hands, hug or nothin…. Just get together SOME way… Outside? In a Park? I don’t know.
B