# 37
Robert Wolter to Brian
Feb 22, 2009
being a musician i’ve seen some crazy shit, and i’m assuming you have too. over the years my life has quieted down a lot while at the same time a lot of my friends lives have amped up. i went up to nyc with my best friend tonight to visit our buddy who was having a party at his place. normally i wouldn’t have gone but i wanted to get out and have a bro-down, know what i mean? as we were walking up to his place a realization started to take place in my mind. 1. he’s single 2. he lives with another single guy 3. he drinks and smokes 4. it’s 30 degrees out.
so of course all of my worst fears come true and to make matters worse his roommates friends are all wannabe DJ’s so there’s tons of dudes in lebron james jerseys rolling and smoking blunts and i’m like trying to stay warm by the grill on the porch wondering how i didn’t realize this. well, i made it through the night and i made my friend leave early. aside from the obvious nightmare of a physical situation for me it was good to hang with my friends and get out for a little.
anyways to make my point. it fucking sucks that i can’t go balls out anymore, you know? do you ever get pissed off about that? i know it’s not a good feeling to carry, but when i see all these kids my age letting loose and going crazy and i’m like having a mini-panic attack at my friends party cause i don’t want to suffocate…you get the picture.
Also, we were talking on the way back from the city about what happens when you die and his opinion is that we all just get recycled back into nature, that we’re all organic beings and that what we live is what we get. i just can’t buy that. i can’t. how can all the people who get a short stick, how can that be it for them? i mean, all things considered i have it REALLY good and i’m bitching about how i can’t get wasted. there are people who suffer beyond my comprehension. this can’t be their only experience.
ah man, sorry to go off on you like this but i think you’re the closest person i know who can understand these types of things. thank god for that “super nice” gene!